streams of consciousnesssssss
my boyfriend gives lousy presents.not tht ive received any nowadays.
and anyways i have two more papers to go, double sulks.
pol sci was surprisingly do-able, i just hope do-able grades will be refelected as well.
sea was so-so. though i kinda screwed up the magic and religion qns.
which was can magic be defined as religion in sea.
and i cant believe i can think in vulgarities.
anyways i realised it when i was doing my sea paper today.
as i was looking at the magic and religion qns. this whole sentence came into my mind
"what the fug is their similarities, fug, examples examples, darn"
and then i realised wow, vulgarities are incorporated into my stream of consciousness.
cool.
and then i realised i hadta finish my paper and so i continued writing anything i cld think of.
which was.
not much.
anyways. something from my pol sci readings was quite true.
"people who define democracy solely on the basis of being able to criticise the government have never been hungry"
using this logic:
those who are contented with mundance and boring life, actually do have a more interesting life compared to the real mundane ones (points to myself)
its like seeing lovey dovey couples saying im happy just to be around you, LIKE HELLO, thats cause ur he brings u to more or less exciting places where u all actually do distinctively special stuff like nice meals and so on.
those holding flowers in their hands, dun effing try to tell me, that its nothing, and love is more important crap.
hell symbolic expressions are all i learn about in soci.
im not sayin symbolic expressions materialistically shld engulf ur life, though sumtimes it does engulf our lives nowadays, but thats another matter, the thing is, material objects do have a symbolic value and are meant to be expressed in such forms, perhaps occasionally. so u have it occasionally dun come tell me everyone is different coz u have it and i dun. maybu will understand if u dun too.
and so,
dun try to tell me not to compare.
hey u have wad i dun, of course dun need compare la.
rahhhh
9:48 PM
Saturday, November 17, 2007
daydreams
me vant the tiffany heart tag choker in gold.....i'll prob get it as a bday gift for myself.
o wells.
i need motivation to study.
rahhhh
8:11 PM
baby love
musicals are delirously happy.and i wish mine was too,
o wells.
i dun seem to be studying alot and thts weird.
coz normally i freak out n start reading.
but now im just slacking, fully conscious tht the exams are coming,
like real soon.
u are my baby love, my baby love.
and i guess a new start would be nice.
rahhhh
1:44 AM
Monday, November 05, 2007
darn
argh!alol i cna say is essays are timeconsuming brain squeezingnessly irritating.
especially since miss beryl here has incoherent thoughts.
rahhhh
11:31 PM
Sunday, November 04, 2007
maybe
I'm strongBut I break
I'm stubborn
And I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah I'm hard
And life with me is never easy
To figure out, to love
I'm jaded but oh so lovely
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe
Someday
When we're at the same place
When we're on the same road
When it's okay to hold my hand
Without feeling lost
Without all the excuses
When it's just because you love me, you let me, you need me
Then maybe, maybe
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe
I'm confusing as hell
I'm north and south
And I'll probably never have it all figured out
But what I know is I wasn't meant to walk this world without you
And I promise I'll try
Yeah I'm gonna try to give you every little part of me
Every single detail you missed with your eyes
Then maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe
One day
We'll meet again and you'll need me, you'll see me completely
Every little bit
Oh yeah maybe you'll love me, you'll love me then
I don't want to be tough
And I don't want to be proud
I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found
I'm not lost I need to be loved
I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you and I won't stop 'cause I believe
That maybe, yeah maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe
I should know better than to touch the fire twice
But I'm thinking maybe, yeah maybe you might
Maybe, love maybe
rahhhh
11:12 PM
Thursday, November 01, 2007
workload
o wells.i have a sea essay n reflection to go.
i wish i was happy-happy.
the kind where i stop moaning over everything and telling myself tht i made it thru another day.
the kind where i can smile without forcing myself to think of happy thoughts.
the kind where i have no doubts about the choices im making.
make tht my bday wish then.
to be happy.
but then again i realised the power of having hope.
and being devoid of it would probably ease my pain or envy alot more.
so i guess, i rather just neglect everything now then wait for the possibility of anything happening.
